Xzibit - 1983 Remix lyrics
rate me[Intro: Trena Joiner]I think we all have these moments in our lives where, we say or do thingsAnd we're so sorry for them, reallyIt's not the way we would have wanted it to come outUmm, let's face it, this is real lifeAnd this is the thought that was captured from meThat words only share a small portion of the vision that they give witness too[Xzibit]I had to write this in blood because the ink wouldn't stickI sold five or six million but yo that ain't really shitIt was supposed to be different, we were supposed to ride outBut Too Much shot his girl then shot himself in the mouthThen the Steady Gang formed but very soon fell apartCause when you're just doin art with no loyalty in your heartIt's like catchin Alzheimer's, all these niggaz forgettin where they comin fromHad to slow it down, wait a minute, what we runnin from?This is what we supposed to do, here's where we supposed to beI hated MTV for tryin to play me like a mockeryBut that don't bother me, I just fulfilled my fuckin contractSmall price to pay just to get your peace of mind back (mind back)Backfire, assassination of my characterJust to make some millions off AmericaMy younger sister Erica just adopted a childMy older brother served fifteen, he made it outEven though my father love me I ain't seen him in a whileHad to fight my baby mama, bitch give me my nigga nowCause he's runnin out of time and I need him to understandThe way of the superior man, I built a brandNiggaz talk about my taxes, I done paid Uncle SamI'm survivin cause the mind's eye is quicker than the hand[Interlude: Trena Joiner]Feet outgrew shows, racism outgrew tolerancesAnd the city glowed at night with the fires of rageUnconsciousness gave way to consciousnessPeople and martyrs lived out their lives and deaths on the 6 o'clock newsand we, me and my brothers and my sisters, went our own waydiscovering our own truths, our own pain, our own love[Xzibit]Heartbreak, disappointmentMy mother died when I was 9, I just wanted to join herNaw Mr. Joiner, you get to CaliforniaI got somethin for you to do, it's like I was annointedResurrected, found my purposeI remember meetin Dre bein nervous when I would kick my versesI was virtually worthless, my whole life was a circusI was sleepin with serpents, and I thought they was worth itI got a call from Paul, told me shit wasn't workinExchanged words, I told him tell me that shit in personHe probably told EmAnd by the way that he said it unapologetic, twisted, made it about himI see Slim and he said he didn't recognize meWas it that or did he let another man define me?I don't know but now I gotta get this all behind meFollow my callin when I used to follow niggaz blindly[Interlude: Trena Joiner]I don't buy my children designer clothesbecause I don't want them looking under their arms or on their behindsto find out who they are[Xzibit]Huh, I wish I had a better relationship with my unclesBlood relatives I could turn to when I'm feelin troubledAnd talk about my struggles, my uncle JonelleHe only put me on the phone with different females"Yeah this is such and such, nephew tell her what's up"Ain't even ask about Tremayne and Gatlyn growin upFuck, I drink it all then I smash the bottleSelf-medicated numb but I'ma feel it tomorrowIt feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skinBut now that pain is gone, I got my second windOnly the strong live long, you better settle inI'm fightin forever, I will never let the devil win1983, that's when my journey beginsI searched everywhere for strength and only found it withinThis for me and my kin, still dyin to liveLivin life to the fullest 'til I see you again[Outro: Trena Joiner]Alvin, I would love it if I could have ummOne of those OOOH-OOOOH-OOOH-OOOOOOOOOOH underneath himUmm, just for that one partAnd then just go into something else
