VAKILL - Cry You a River lyrics

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[Verse 1]

The moment you squeezed the trigger, I felt dissed

How the hell could you be so selfish, the current events that led up to this moment

You masqueraded your death wish, you ain't think I had the mental capacity

To comprehended your troubles and theft ness

So subtle I'm breathless, Imma be just like you was my old model

That was before you murked my best friend, big cousin and role model

Left my soul hollow, now I hold bottles of E and J

And drown myself in this alcoholic slow sorrow

And I find myself not taking sips, but whole swallows

And my outlook on life's meaning is so shallow

You led by example

Your life was the blueprint I was supposed to go follow

Back to fishing due to the fact you missing

At a crossroads 'cause at the wake of your untimely demise

You sent me on a backwards mission

Shit, I only pray that Allah has mercy on your soul upon his acquisition

I can't help but find it suitable cursing

You fucked up a beautiful person

And still on judgment day I pray your sole gets acquitted

Without question I'll always love you, I just hate the horrible act you committed

[Chorus x2]

I'll cry you a river

If not, then this song I'll try and deliver

I'm still in denial, you can't die you my nigga

I'm all out of liquor so I'm pouring out my heart to you...my nigga

[Verse 2]

I'd be lying through my grill if I said it's been all lovely

It ain't all good it's been a slow recovery

Except when I'm drunk and bubbly

Although on certain days I swear I feel your brotherly spirit hover above me

Shit, I almost died seven years ago

Think God point you when he said prevention for my divine intervention

If not, then God I wish you do such

Lately I've been faced with adversity and dealing with issues too much

No shoulders to lean on, if they ain't cold then they hunched up

A few family members is genuine and a bunch suck

I know it's foul, even at reunions some don't show a smile

Even though most of us are almost 30-years old with child

The degrees of separation lures my heart

Where's the offspring supposed to start?

Cause sometimes even the thickest of blood grows apart

Am I too old or smart? Even she knows when the goodbyes and hellos is tart

Time don't heal every wound sometimes it adds to the sufferage

I'm knowing as if life wasn't enough a bitch

Your presence is missing; still I know your spiritual essence will listen

Give your brother my blessings in prison

[Chorus x2]

[Verse 3]

They say suicides an unforgivable act

Can't sneak into God's graces there's no visible cracks

So when it's time for him to revisit the facts, I'm praying

That you an exception to the rule and he'll review every individuals tracks

Lord I hope you see the goodness that was

But keep a spot in your heart for him and the heavenly hood that's above

I understood it's a shove to ask you to keep his soul in your graces

But if anything could it's the love

If I could turn back the hands of time I'd rather squeeze the tool myself

Can't let that kind of fate repeat G

I hate me deeply, the possibility if I was to die this moment

You wouldn't be at the golden gates to greet me

The absence would mess up the vanity the rest of infinity

If I had a personal hell, you could guess what's the penalty

Shit, just the main thought of it all makes me teary eyed

No matter how much I tell myself to look on the cheery side

No matter how much I talk with God in deep discussion

Cause you and I both knew the repercussions

When you put your soul in the reapers clutches

So why then, I'm still trying to figure as I'm crying this river

[Chorus x2]