September - Four Years Dead lyrics

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Well I guess its been four years today since

I've first felt acceptance

And a sense of trust and compassion

You didn't call it luv but it felt like it

At least every time since then that I felt it

That's how one would describes it

A selfless hero is what I wanted u to see

But just a reckless fool is all that I turn out to be

Because I was wreckin' myself just to make u happy

I didn't care if I was hurtin', as long as you're smilin'

Well they all say the sky is the limit, my heads in the clouds

And I'm floatin' in the vacancy of space where my heart should be

Constantly playin' scenarios in my head of what could have been

Stop, rewind, repeat, stop, step back, just let me leave

The only thing that I seem to have left I can hold close to me

Are now nothin' but a faded memory, the reason why I poison myself

With alcohol and cigarettes, whateva there is to kill me

Without u worryin'

And its nights like these when I've had too much to drink

That I start to miss havin' a god to believe in

Somethin' otha than poison that slurs my words and blurs my vision

Just somethin' to listen when I need to cave in

And I miss those nights when u told me

That I have a reason to be alive

And I miss those nights u stayed up with me

Just so I could make it through anotha night