PHZ-Sicks - Stream of Consciousnessrate me
*Sounds within a hospital. Shallow breathing*
The day I saw you take your last breath
Made me feel like I took my own last breath
I mean how can you comprehend
Knowing that these are the last moments that you’ll ever spend
With a person that changed your life
Showed you what love is, gave you day and night
Every memory becomes vivid as the world keeps spinning
Lysozymes in my vision, praying for another minute
But how the fuck could we spend it?
We can meditate or I can tell you everything in my spirit
Smell of disinfectants, heart monitor beeping louder than my message
So, give me a sign that you can hear it?
Can you hear my cries? Can you hear my byes?
If this is the cold truth, can we live in lies?
I don’t wanna go on, I don’t wanna move on
So I put this in a song so I carry on
Everything that you taught me, everything that you brought me
Took me so long to find myself, now I feel like I lost me
I did, a huge part of me
Like that cancer that the doctors couldn’t cut out
So, what not? Tell me what to do now?
You live in my words, you live in my actions
You said don’t live in the past, just move forward past them
So I can teach my future about you and everything that you said
Is the only way that I can truly ever raise the dead
Your life will never be in vain
If your life is flowing through my veins
I’m trying to turn gold out of this pain
I miss you and that’s without saying
I’m tired, just hoping to make it through this day
(Day), Day (day), Day (day), Day (day)
I just need time (time), time (time) time (time)
Time (time), time
The first time I met my Grandfather
Would also be the last time in Benton Harbor
But I’m honored cause that is further
Than anything I ever had with my own father
Looking at a picture of my dad holding me and in it I am crying
It was probably a year before he left and I would be lying
If I said, it didn’t affect me when left me
I think it about every now and then and that shit still perplex me
It’s cool you didn’t want to marry my mom, nigga
Because of that, you had to stop being a father figure
Funny thing is, I don’t even know if he’s alive or dead
And I thought ‘bout our conversation and what would be said
Like, how you doing? Did you lose your hands so a phone you couldn’t pick up?
Do I have a brother or sister? How could you forget me out the picture?
Did you ever think of me? Did you ever consider me?
Damn, a son without a father would be missing you so was you missing me?
Damn, it’s my unsolved mystery
That ancestry to me will be a long gone history
Erase his mistake when my name is no longer Dorsey
Don’t repeat his mistake cause that life will become before me
My goal’s to be something you can never be, man
Something you can never be, a man
Man, man, man
Man, no father figure, skinny nigga with a temper
Almost took a life I remember
In seconds, a whole life could be change
And we take for granted some of the most trivial things
Like the fact that I’m walking and breathing
Have the opportunity to change the world from what I’m speaking
Ha, so I vow in my time in this body, I’ll make a difference
Leave behind a manual for all the future Princes and Princess
It’s my hopeless, magnus opus
It’s my hopeless, mangus opus
Yes, yes, yes, yes
Thanks to PHZ-Sicks for correcting these lyrics