Lokevelli - Nineteen Eighty Four lyrics
rate me"This side's my life and my personality and shit, you know what I'm sayin? Reflection of who I am."<br />
(This is the tale of a man searching for himself within himself. The chameleon changes his exterior to adapt to his environment. Constantly trying to blend into the world around him. But at what point does the chameleon find his real colors and separate himself from the colors of the past? And more importantly, what kind of journey will the chameleon face once he has learned who he is and his place in this world? Inked with blood and sealed with exhaustion, the following is a representation of that journey. The journey of one the twisted lead helplessly through a realm of confusion, trying to find some meaning and sense and understanding.)<br />
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July 10th, nineteen eighty four I was born<br />
Feeling dealt with a cut in my umbilical cord<br />
I was put up for adoption and sent through the courts<br />
My mom was only 18 I aint blamin the fault<br />
I was raised down in midtowns and brought up well<br />
Was put through the public school system as hell<br />
Was fucked with for being an outcast a quiet one<br />
Hook ya listen to this you know where I'm comin from<br />
But my daddy had a shop out in Bristol<br />
Where you could get this all right with missiles and pistols<br />
I started sneakin bullets into school when I had to<br />
I leave a few on top of peoples desk in the classroom<br />
Started doin drugs, gettin really interested<br />
In death metal, hip-hop, and anything with a rhythm<br />
I started getting straight F's on report cards<br />
That's when I started gettin in fights in the courtyards<br />
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[Chorus]<br />
No matter what you doin<br />
No matter where you lookin<br />
No matter what you thinkin<br />
Y'all can't see me[x2]<br />
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Yo, 1999's when I dropped outta high school<br />
With that the hip-hop's the only thing that I knew<br />
Sat and almost stayed up all night<br />
And just right it on techniques and rippin the mic<br />
Livin in the light of somebody<br />
Who wanted to prove em all wrong feelin the mic<br />
Cause there was nobody else to call on<br />
I was the nice kid that everybody walked on<br />
Fucked up my head and now I'm happy that y'all gone<br />
Back in the day I used to have to scream for attention<br />
And now it follows me like suicidal intervention<br />
[?] pursuin my music<br />
But it's too late to turn back now I'll never lose it<br />
And as I look back to 1989<br />
Watchin movies that potentially made me waste my young mind<br />
Made me into something that was truly one of a kind<br />
So when I hit the top y'all aint gettin a fuckin dime<br />
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[Chorus x2]<br />
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Life's such a doubled edged sword at times<br />
It can be so beautiful and so divine<br />
It can be so musical with flows and rhymes<br />
And at the same time drain you of all your pride<br />
And leave you fu-fucked up in the head<br />
And then the tracks can't even bitin<br />
Apple slices lookin fast plan<br />
To get you out of all the problems that are manifested<br />
Damage every second of your innocence and adolescence<br />
So now I look up at the sky and wonder<br />
How the fuck did I end up in such a rubble<br />
I'm just a drunk bum lookin for an easy way out<br />
Lookin for a rainfall like a season of drought<br />
Yo I know that nobody relates to what the fuck I'm sayin<br />
I think I'm just killin time for my blood sprayin<br />
I think I'm finally goin crazy for real<br />
Just smiling to the point that I can't keep my thoughts sealed<br />
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[Chorus x2]<br />
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"Every song every word on that's true you know what I'm sayin, it's 100% real shit"
