La Dispute - Andria lyrics

rate me

You still cross my mind from time lo time. And I mostly smile.<br />

Still so set on finding out where we went wrong and why<br />

So I retrace our every step with an unsure pen, <br />

Trying to figure out what my head thinks, <br />

But my head just ain't what it used to be.<br />

And then again, what's the point anyway?<br />

I remember you ascending all the stairs up to the balcony<br />

To see if you could see me - hidden quietly away<br />

And I remember the skin of your fingers, <br />

The spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to say.<br />

You held my hand, but you were too afraid to speak and I could never understand.<br />

I remember when you leaned in quick to kiss me, and I swear, <br />

That not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand, <br />

And I remember how you smiled through the smoke<br />

In a crowded little coffeehouse and laughed at all my jokes.<br />

And I remember the way that you dressed and, <br />

How we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweat<br />

And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving, how I barely kept up breathing<br />

And I bet if I had to do it all again, I'd feel the same pain, <br />

And I remember panicked circles in the terminal in tears.<br />

How I wept to god in fits. I've hated airports ever since.<br />

It must be true what people say, that only time can heal the pain.<br />

And every single day I feel it fade away, but -<br />

I still remember how the distance tricked us, <br />

And lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured.<br />

I still remember how we held so strong to this, <br />

Though we had never really settled on a way out.<br />

I still remember the silence, and how we'd always find a way<br />

To turn and run to our mistakes.<br />

I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again.<br />

My dear, I hear your voice in mine.<br />

I've been alone here, I've been afraid, my dear.<br />

I've been at home here. You've been away for years. I've been alone.<br />

I breathed your name into the air; I etched your name into me.<br />

I felt my anger swelling; I swam into it's sea.<br />

I held your name inside my heart, but it got buried in my fear.<br />

It tore the wiring of my brain; I did my best to keep it clear.<br />

So, dear, no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head.<br />

And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead.<br />

If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend.<br />

And I will lay a bed before you; keep you safe until the end.