KJ-52 - Fanmail lyrics

rate me

My arms are sliced up but I'm not embarrassed

It's the only way I get attention now from my parents

It's not like they really take the time to be caring

They just use me to watch the baby when they run errands

My name is _ I got a friend named Karen

She gave me your CD with the track for Eminem

You wrote a song called #1 fan I listened and

I wanted to know if you can help me like you was helping them

She had something even harder to be mentioning

like every single day i struggle just with fitting in

Plus the boys wont give me no attention and

I get teased and made fun of by all my friends and then

See I'm feeling like I'm wishing now that i could end

my life cuz i'm sick and tired of all the time i spend

trying to figure out how I could be worth anything

can you help me KJ from your fan

I'm writing this letter

Cause I have to tell ya

I need some help from you

I'm writing this letter

I hope that you get it

I need some help from you

I live with my mom ever since my parents split

And at home I spend my time on the internet

Looking at porn I'm addicted and sick of it

Myspace dot com is mostly where I'm gettin it

On top of that there's videos that I can watch

And I really wanna quit but it's like I can't stop

See I'm scared that the I'm just gonna get caught

And when I see a girl all I think is dirty thoughts

And it's not that I don't know that its really wrong

But its right here for me everytime I'm logging on

I got all your CDs I really like your songs

Well I downloaded em but anyway moving on

My screen name is KJ-52 is the bomb

I want to do a website KJ rocks dot com

I really need some help cuz I cant tell my mom

Oh by the way my real name is _

I'm writing this letter

Cause I have to tell ya

I need some help from you

I'm writing this letter

I hope that you get it

I need some help from you

I took the time just to write you

we play you every Wednesday at my youth group

I love your music and we all think that you's cool

But I been struggling ever since I moved to a new school

See everybody thinks that I'm the perfect Christian Girl

I had a hard time trying to believe that God is real

I've been on mission trips and camps the whole deal

My dad had cancer tho I prayed that God would heal

But he died anyway so its hard to feel

like he cares about me so was it God's will

To take my dad I really got a raw deal

Sometimes i just wanna swallow all my moms pills

When I pray I really doubt it

I've lost my way or maybe I never found it

I've been smoking and drinking and nobody knows about it

by the way my name is _ don't mispronounce it..

I'm writing this letter

Cause I have to tell ya

I need some help from you

I'm writing this letter

I hope that you get it

I need some help from you

If I could write to every kid that out there

Every kid thats hurting feels like nobody cares

I would tell them that god can wipe away every tear

And he's right near and i would say it quite clear

Your here for a reason you're not a mistake

you are a special creation that God himself made

To the victims of abuse to every girl that was raped

You can live and be free from your pain

And find strength and no longer be ashamed

You can find peace and hope in Jesus name

You ain't gotta live with this hurt everyday

Christ came to give you life in a much better way

To every kid right now that's full of hate

And bitterness I'd tell em just to give it all away

To the one that came to take all the blame

That's what I'd write here's what I'd say

I'm writing this letter

Cause I have to tell ya

I need some help from you

I'm writing this letter

I hope that you get it

I need some help from you