Boondox - Cold Cruel World lyrics

rate me

I don't know what to do anymore

After I quit with medicine I became psycotic

I suffer from depression

Complete depression

Had it my whole life

I have had it so bad that uh...

I had anxiety

Been diagnosed with major depression

Lots of phobias, lots of fears

Anxiety, panic attacks

Manic depression before, I didn't think that

Depression could be so bad

Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders

Everything around me closing in, it's starts to grow colder

It's like I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion

Shits real fucked up, my brains filled with much confusion

Do you know what it is to sit a 3am

With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin'

Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills

Cause the fuckin' rent's due and you can't pay bills

Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart

I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart

Ten motherfuckin' seconds just from ending this shit

Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit

Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin'

Sat a half an hour, just thinkin' of a better way

To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease

Put the barrel in my mouth, I wanna sleep for all eternity

Dear cold cruel world why am I here?

I never asked to be alive

Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

I'll be better off when I'm gone

In my own private Hell and left all alone

Somany reasons just to leave this fuckin' planet

Pressure gets to me so much, god damn, I just can't stand it

People hatin', credit problems, bitch be fuckin' my friends

A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend

Nobody like me, I'm a loser, parents wish I was dead

I'm overweight, can't get a date, I'll turn my walls to red

Unlock the door, turn up the music, flip the T.V. screen

I'll leave a bloody fuckin' mess off for my moms to clean

It's's to the point that I can't stand it, I can't even try to cope

And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope

It's too late to try and stop it, I have lost the fuckin' war

I ain't gonna write no fuckin' letter, leave my answers on the floor

I'm a do it I swear, don't even think I'm lyin'

Nobody gone remember me, nobody gone be cryin'

All alone in my death like I was in life

Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight

Dear cold cruel world why am I here?

I never asked to be alive

Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

I'll be better off when I'm gone

In my own private Hell and left all alone

You won't miss me when I'm gone

(Flames risin', flames risin')

I know you did me so wrong

(Flames risin')

Dear cold cruel world why am I here?

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear cold cruel world why am I here?

(just wipe away, just wipe away)

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

(just wipe away, just wipe away)

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear cold cruel world why am I here?

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

Flames risin', flames risin'