Elle Varner - The End Of The Beginning lyrics

rate me

These are the woes of a twenty seven year old

Single black female addicted to retail

I'm single cos' I trusted every asshole I eva met

And lately I've been fed up wit that shit

It ain't been workin' out so well

So now I'm soakin' in this Starbucks, sippin' skinny caramel

Iced macchiato, wonderin' what life would be like if I was a hoe

If I'dda gave it up to everyone who wanted some

My Louboutin count would be at 101

And rent, I'd neva pay that shit again

And Angelina did it, and since she hasn't spent a penny since

But me, I'm just as stubborn as my mother

Neva depend on anotha fo' my check

The hardest workin' women neva sit in some lawn chairs

We ain't got time fo' our hair and our nails, am I fair?

I ain't put out a song in a year

What if I bear my heart and soul again and nobody cares

Blood sweat and tears dissipatin' in a year, so unfair

I hold my breath, more or less, I'm so stressed

Maybe I need a catch, cos' I already think I'm pretty

But I really would do wonders wit a brand new pair of titties

All the generations kiddies will go crazy up on Viddy

Some say I was a sucker while I'm laughin' to the biddy, feelin' giddy

The numbers just went up about a milli

They say it's bitter-sweet and might prickly at the victory

But victory to me is makin' money, bein' free

And self express, I neva said I was the best, I have no desire to be

My ego will be fine, it's neva dyin'

When nothin' else on Earth is alive it will survive

As will you, as will I, as we wish, as we work

7 billion talkin' heads separate Church and State

All I want to be is great and no one said it would be easy

In fact they told me long ago that folks would do me greazy

Family and friends, it neva ends

Cos' when you got ends, it all depends

'Aye yo Elle, where you been?'

I don't seem to remember all these people in December

When I was sneakin' meals inside the college cafeteria

My dollas was declining, I barely was survivin'

My numbers still the same but like they say I guess it's timin'

They luv to say you've changed, it's convenient as dry cleanin'

They luv ya even more when you're leavin'

They show up at your door wit empty hands and open arms

Telling you they always knew how far you come along

I take a puff and pass it like a bone

It's been so long the California girl

Wit drinks fo' thoughts, sleep fo' food, songs fo' life

All I want to do is write, so I eat my prayer to kids

And say a prayer every night

Fo' the ones who need it most, shit I need it too

I've been jet black and blue without ya

The Interstate I eva been to see said I'm drownin' in the sink

Or swim fo' me now, on a real I don't know who to be now

And I don't want to rebound, can't get wit the get down

I'm good wit pickin' apples from the ground

And runnin' round town wit a clown singing 'who's sorry now?'

I thought about it just to make you jealous

Act like I'm doin' business from an empty office building

Instagram flexin' like my livin' was dependent

Like 'ooh you missed the party, everyone was in attendance'

But you, it's all in my imagination

You runnin' back to me, the scene I'm constantly replayin'

It's borderline obsessive, my words were so offensive

I'm good at burnin' bridges, not so good at climbin' fences

I hope our luv will stay alive

Like Romeo and Juliet did before they died

But unlike they we skip the poison and grow old

A couple of rings, a couple million albums sold

And after everythin' we happy

I'm eighty, full of wrinkles and you still lookin' at me

Like you made the right decision

Yeah the story could have been different

I guess we'll have to wait and see then

Don't mind me, I'm just ventin'

But on the real, finally this is the end of the beginnin'