Ca$his - Serenade My Life lyrics

rate me

Yea, uh, Shady!

Its cashis, serenade my life

Shady!

Focusing on opening

emotions that I hold within

surounded by my innerdemons

thinking i should roll with them

i dont wanna go to hell

i dont wanna go to jail

but i wanna kill a man

maybe i should kill myself

poppin shit, contemplating

suicidal situations

now im placed in that position

to provide the whole nation

and im spottin niggas hating

im just watchin, being patient

praying for my own *existance

some say im a mental patient

drugs is taking over me

sorrow is controlling me

follow my blind heart

tomorrow on the *cold of spring*

pop is cryin for a week

will is week, can i speak

without somebody judging me

pushin me and shovin me

moma if u love me

u will really let me go

but i live for a cause

that i dont really know

am I wrong if i cry

but i cant cause in time

for the truth in my life

i will be crucified

Chorus:

im sittin back patient(patient)

im ready and waitin(waitin)

for my homicide

serenade my life

and i cant escape it(scape it)

im ready and waitin(waitin)

for my homicide

serendade my life

X2

Conversating with my brothers

*spirit here im saying

strangers in the dark, lurking,

groupies gotta feel em waking

i aint eating, i aint sleeping

close the door and

i aint breathing

death is running over me

my concious keeps on

showing me

ever since my early teens,

music was my destiny

wolrd gotta feel my pain,

im no longer questionning

when, where or how i will,

happen for when i get killed

never take my voice away

record sales how i live

leave me as the realast nigga

poppin pills, drinkin liquor

sucked into the pressure

makes me turn to my agression

got alot a niggas dead

buried all in my head

cry inside everytime

i ever stop to read my head

cock it up, be a man

ive never been near a man

all yall fraudulent

u dont like it kill me then

cock it up, be a man

ive never been near a man

all yall fraudulent

u dont like it, kill me then

Chorus

Sunk into a sea of self--misery

being dealt

my only fear is lyracilly

me not being felt

much harder, much smarter

more true, Fuck you

no matter what the conversation

this is what it comes to

imagine staring at your friend

feeling they dont love you

u ride till the end but

they feel they above you

i got a chosen few

name my homies in the song

defy all odds

more to meet when im gone

i try to be a better man

baby if you understand

my love for you is true

but i aint really love myself

see nobody wanna help

better off to end this way

talking to my only friends

weed, G's, Hennessy

came from a broken home

smoke till the dope is gone

listen to the words homy

this aint really just a song

came from a broken home

smoke till the dope is gone

listen to the words homy

this aint really just a song

Chorus

Serenade my life

Shady Records on Ca$his

its the real shit

serenade my life

i aint scarred, i aint runnin

im waitin, come get me nigga

live as a man, die as a man