Boondox - Fear lyrics

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Visions of my children wiping tears from open eyes

As they Kneel beside my coffin family say their last goodbyes

But its the faces of my babies got me trippin, thankin God for breath

Expressions filled with pain has got me strappin on the vest

And I know that I ain't living right I hang on borrowed time

And this life's gonna leave them bastards cause their pops has gotta grind

Little mouths have got to eat so I hug them hit the streets

Splittin time with them and money got me feelin incomplete

And I ain't scared of any mothafucka fight the flames of hell

But a child without his dad has got me hiding in my shell

Got me shakin in my boots to see them face this world alone

Are the strong enough to cope stuck in half a fuckin home

As I lay them down to sleep its all on me their soul to keep

And if I die before I wake I pray to

God he's up there waitin

With an army full of angels strapped with gats cause

I'm defying

Since I first became o father only fear I have is dying

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

I'm feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

I'm feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

After all that I have ever done

And all that you would ever see from life

Death beyond the grave

How will they remember me

I only fear the lost of my voice

When its gone

The only noise is the pen

Im a writer by choice

I can cut my tounge clean off

And smoke myself toothless

I still be on the mic

Spittin shit they call ruthless

The truth is

I could go deaf dumb and blind in one year

And be the dopest dead deaf dumb blind guy you ever hear

I aint scared of dyin or

Death I've been there

rottining in the ground in The pine box for many years

My return aint no form of reincarnation

Get lost in translation

And with the loss of expression brings great depression

The thoughts of everything ending is what i'm guessing

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

My eyes open but I don't remember much

I try to focus but the light is bright as fuck

I go to sit up but I'm strapped and stuck

Stuck in panic, cant say nothin

Like my jaw is wired shut

How the fuck did I get to where I am is still a mystery

My memories' not assistin me

As I lay here in misery

Literally hopin some body would give me some kind of time

Am I dead or alive

Is this a dream or a sign

Is there a chance I can find in my mind a rewind button

But paint me behind blinds and find somethin

Its like a game but nobody told me we were playin

And the fact that I don't know if Im alive's insane

And inside of my brain only one thing remains:

The fear of not knowing paralyzes all most everthin

Any second can be my last breath

And my best guess is nothin with on memories left

I'm sorry

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losing sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

Thanks to glazgow smile for correcting these lyrics