Blood Red Throne - Not Turgenjev, But Close lyrics

rate me

I dress in the skin of<br />

What is already dead<br />

I take on the part<br />

Which the surroundings expect<br />

Though there unaware<br />

Of the anti-life inside<br />

My thoughts circle around<br />

The opposite of asphyxia,<br />

Because that's what I am<br />

(I haven't been anything else<br />

For a very long time)<br />

It has been written alot about<br />

The overwhelming darkness<br />

But it didn't Clearly state<br />

The amount of insight it contains<br />

It knows more than the light<br />

It wreathes me and observes me from all angles<br />

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Maybe I am to be born now?<br />

I look upon that day with fear and horror<br />

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I have reconciled myself<br />

With my thoughts and vision<br />

It took ages, but now its over<br />

I can accept the obvious<br />

Because its what you see<br />

I can live with the hatred and self contempt,<br />

But I cannot survive the disgust and nausea of others<br />

If they were to experience me from the inside<br />

Beneath the unasphyxiated exterior<br />

I look upon that day with fear and horror<br />

The day when suicide becomes inevitable<br />

Because it will arrive, That, I know.

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