Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself 
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself 
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself 
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself 

There's someone calling my name 
But there's nothing to respond 
I lost so much in our collapse 
Man, my little hope is gone 

The voice said don't worry friend 
The darkness is just a suggestion 
Oh don't worry kid 
This darkeness is just a suggestion 
Oh don't worry Kevin 

I'm allergic to the world when we're separated 
There's nothing in my heart that's worth the beating 
Feeling like a styrofoam prop 
Ennui is eating 
I'm sure we talk and talk 
But nothing worth repeating 
I feel defeated 

Now I'm O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues 
You make me uptight 
When you just don't work right 
You painted my prison now something's wrong 
And I never ever wanted to write this song 

I'm killing myself but it's not suicide 
I'm killing myself 
I'm killing myself but it's not suicide 
I'm killing myself 
And my friends will never know 
Because I've never been 
Because I've never been honest with anyone 

Always pulling faces from the unreposessing places of the universal mind 
I'm crippled by the world when we're divided 
There's nothing in my heart that's worth the clicking 
Feeling like a Pamplona bull that's finished kicking 

Although we try to break the loop 
It's always stuck repeating 
I feel defeated 

Now I'm O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues 
You make me uptight 
When you just don't work right 
You painted my prison now something's wrong 
And I never ever wanted to write this song 
I always thought things would change somehow 
And we would start getting along 
But it's hopeless 
And i never ever wanted to write this song 
I always thought things would change somehow 
And we would start getting along 
But it's hopeless

                          Thanks to pamson for these lyrics